“Sons are a heritage from the Lord, children a reward from him. Like arrows in the hands of a warrior are sons born in one’s youth. Blessed is the man whose quiver is full of them.”
- Psalm 127-3-5
I remember reading this verse in 1995 and the tears that poured onto my Bible as sadness stabbed my heart. My womb was barren like the dessert. My hopes of having children had long ago vanished. I remember the desperation in my heart as I actually wrote this prayer in the margin of my Bible, “Bless our home with children Lord. We wait on You. – December 1995.” I desperately wanted to trust God yet my heart struggled to understand how a loving, kind God could say no to my deepest heart’s desire.
Little did I know that in a little less than a year, God knew that two amazing boys would need a forever home and that He would perfectly weave them into our hearts.
Being patient is perhaps one of the most difficult tasks God gives us. The more we want something the harder it is to wait. Patience…the very word causes us to yawn, roll our eyes or turn our attention to something else. However, being patient is not being passive or lazy, but rather being bold in confidence that God will do exactly what He promises to do. In fact, it’s nearly impossible to truly and honestly serve God faithfully and obediently without being a patient person who is willing to wait and trust God for His answer in His timing.
Lord, You know how desperate I am today. You know that my faith has wavered. You know that I am desperate for an answer. And although I want to trust You, I’m having trouble doing so. So I ask that you will help me to be bold in my confidence that You will do exactly what You have promised to do. I give you this circumstance as I put my trust in You and choose to wait obediently, faithfully and patiently. In Jesus’ name, Amen!