Disillusioned By Disappointment
But Naaman became angry and stalked away. “I thought he would certainly come out to meet me!” he said. “I expected him to wave his hand over the leprosy and call on the name of the LORD his God and heal me!”
- 2 Kings 5:11
DISAPPOINTMENT COMES TO us in all different shapes and sizes. Some are trivial and easy to let go of, like Frosty Boy not having your favorite ice cream flavor. However, others are life altering, and can leave you stunned at the enormity and severity in which it came. How we respond to disappointment matters, especially if the disappointment we feel lies with God.
Naaman was a commander of an army who was highly respected, yet one thing hindered him, leprosy. He heard of a man of God who could heal, so he went to meet him, anticipating a miracle. He arrived not only with anticipation, but also with an expectation of how it would happen. That expectation fell flat when he and his entourage reached the prophet’s home only to wait at the door.
The prophet Elisha never came out to speak to him. Instead, Elisha sent a messenger out to him with a message to go dip in the local river seven times and he would be healed. His answer was there for him, his miracle in the making, but it didn’t look like he had envisioned it. Naaman was mad.
I don’t know about you, but I can relate to Naaman. At times I dream up how God will answer my prayers and have the audacity to suggest it to him, as if he needs my help. There are also times when I pray and God answers, but it certainly isn’t the answer I am looking for. It is in this place of disappointment that I have a choice to make. I can trust that God has something better for me, or I can let it turn to frustration and cause a wedge in my relationship with Him. My response can dictate the course of my life and I must chose wisely.
Today, if you are facing disappointment, tell him about it. God isn’t afraid to hear why or even how disappointed you are. Don’t run from God in your place of loss, but run to Him. Let him love you in that moment and then trust his plans for you are good. (Jer. 29:11)
Father, today I know that disappointment lurks around every corner waiting to trap me. Help me through the loss I feel, and help me to trust you with every detail of my life. You desire good for me. My hope is in you. Amen.